Wait, has it been 7 years since my last post here?

And .. I'm back! Goodness what a long 7 years since my last post.

THE GORGEOUS CEO

Who am I?

 A former endangered species who's been blogging ever since the first blog was invented.

Here I am, starting all over again.

I'm the youngest female CEO in my country, I'm gorgeous and I'm yummy.

Mercy

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Yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah, yeah, yeah

I love you

But I gotta stay true

My moral’s got me on my knees

I’m begging please

Stop playing games

I don’t know what this is

But you got me good

Just like you knew you would

I don’t know what you do

But you do it well

I’m under your spell

You got me begging you for mercy

Why won’t you release me

You got me begging you for mercy

Why won’t you release me

I said you better release me

Now you think that I

Will be some thing on the side

But you got to understand

That I need a man

Who can take my hand, yes I do

I don’t know what this is

But you got me good

Just like you knew you would

I don’t know what you do

But you do it well

I’m under your spell

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You got me begging you for mercy

Why won’t you release me

You got me begging you for mercy

Why won’t you release me

I said you better release me

I’m begging you for mercy

Just why won’t you release me

I’m begging you for mercy

You got me begging

You got me begging

You got me begging

Mercy

Why won’t you release me

I’m begging you for mercy

Why wont you release me

You got me begging you for mercy

I’m begging you for mercy

I’m begging you for mercy

I’m begging you for mercy

I’m begging you for mercy

Why won’t you release me

Bring it on

Mercy

Begging you for mercy

You got me begging

Down on my knees

I said mercy

Begging you for mercy

You got me begging

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One woman,

one man

with hearts so true

come before you

to say I do...

A love so fair

A dream come true

A couple shares

what they are destined to do

He takes her hand

to have and to hold

Their hearts embraceand never let go...

A touch so pure

A smile so real

She closes her eyes

so she may feel

The love of one man

The love of her life

They join as one

as Man and Wife...

I love you not only for what you are,

But for what I am when I am with you

I love you not only for what you have made of yourself

But for what you are making me

I love you for the part of me that you bring out.

I love you for passing over all my foolish and weak traits,

That you can't help but see

I love you for drawing out into the light my beauty,

That no one else had looked quite far enough to din

I love you

Truth Hurts

Most of the time, when women, especially me, ask for an opinion or reaction, we are seeking affirmation. Tell us something we don't want to hear and they'll get riled up. Who likes to deal with unpleasantries? Telling it like it really is - you've put on weight; you don't look nice today; you need to do something with your hair - will make people upset.

So much of our relationships with people we care about is couched in euphemisms.

We usually cushion harsh truths from them not because of evil intentions but because we don't want to hurt them. We think that making positive remarks will protect them, encourage them, buoy them. And we expect them to do the same for us.

Not my fiance. He thinks "if I really care for a person, telling the truth might hurt her, but it might also set her on a correct path to be better."

I agree with him, at least, so that he can guide me and groom me. To a certain extent that is.

The issue isn't so much what you say, but how you say it, mate.

The words he used against me sometimes, can be harshly, but its message did actually make me ponder about myself, which can only be good. Sometimes what he say contains truth in it.

But usually, being the ever-so-sensitive me, I would get hurt by his remarks or responses. I would think "what was that all about? what brought that on? I was only making small talk but its one thing to say this about myself and another for him to be so mean about it." My mind would race furiously to think of a sarcastic reply to text/retort back, but usually I don't bother.

Really. I think. How dare him.

Then he apologised the next day and say sorry blah blah blah, and yet defended himself the reason why he said all that. Naye mate. Me a better lawyer than yer. Objection overruled. Savvy?

Feeling appeased, I was cetain he's saying all that now because he felt bad about what he said. I was certai he was regretting itand I was, in fact, feeling rather triumphant about the situation.

You think so?

Nah.

"Nope. I know my words are harsh on you, but I feel that you need to know that (I mean it)."

I was about to get worked up again when I checked myself.

Actually, he's right.

I was angry with him because he was right. And it hurts real bad for someone I dearly loved, to tell me of my shortcomings to my face. The unexpected shot of hard honesty when I was expecting soft, cooing words of vague sympathy mde me vulnerable because I hadn't realised that others could detect the weak spots in me so easily. It got my defences up.

There were two ways I could counter what he said. Deny it and be angry, or accept the truth and deal with it, and shut up.

I decided to opt for the latter. (A very smart decision which apparently save our relationship many times.) I learnt alot during the course of our 3 year relationship. Especially on how to handle and communicate with him. This is the only person I have ever known, (with the exception of my father) whom I have to admit his spot-on assessments of me, and tell him the ways on how I think I can improve myself and how he can help me after he machine-gunned me with lethally-poisonous adjectives of me.

How I wished I can bullet-proof my ears.

I rarely bitch or rant and rave to my friends about my problems. Rarely.

I don't have many friends. No friends. At least not many real friends whom I can call in the middle of the night if I need someone to talk to, or call for last minute dinners/drinks. I can count them with a single hand. Let me count them. There's Syikin... and Sheryl.. and.. Kak Nana.. and.. oh yes..Felix... and..err.. my fiance?

Yup. That's about it.

True. I'm a sad person. I chose to stay away from friends for certain reasons.

I avoided male friends and acquantainces, because I have more guy friends than girl friends. I tend to seek comfort in talking to my guy buddies and I love hanging out with my best guy friends compared to their female counterparts. Since I am engaged to be married, I wanted to avoid any misunderstandings with/between my man and my (strictly platonic) men.

Problem is, I expect the same from my man. And he does not seem to get it. I'm sick and tired of having to argue with him on this again, so I resolved to chatting up my male buddies again. But sometimes, it just wears me out to maintain friendships. Which is why I'm the sad, lonely little girl that I am. My life revolves around my fiance and I spent most of my time with him.

I am taking someone to court and suing his ass on Tuesday. Wish me luck.

Our Love Story

I still remember the first time I met him online. I wasnt expecting him to contact me, such a surprise for me. We met and kept in touch. I knew I had fallen for him the first time we met.. Oh.. that sexy arm of his... and his tight butt! He melt me instantly with his ex-SQ smile.

We became very close friends, dated each other.. But everytime when he dated other women, my heart breaks.. My heart shatters everytime he told me of the girls he liked. He always say, "...I'm not getting married to anyone the next few years.. So, dont bring up that subject." And to that I whispered to my weeping heart.. "You'll see.. you'll see.."

So I suffered in silence, I love him from afar.. Dodging advances from other men.

I'm sorry I'm not as beautiful as those women you dated, not as intelligent, not as gorgeous.

I'm just a plain, simple young girl, who loves you deeply and wholeheartedly.

Fate had brought us this far, with our wedding looming ahead.

I'm sorry I'm not good enough for you.

I'll try to be the best wife you would ever have, I'll take care of you, love you, respect you, cook and clean for you and have kids with you.

I promise.

I want us to grow old together.. Spend time together.. Travel together.. Share our tears and laughter together.

Everyday is a Valentine's Day for us.

I love you.

Thank you for loving me too.

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I love you more than all the stars in the sky.

I love you more as each moment passes us by.

I love you more with every breath I take.

I love you more with each promise we make. I need you like a flower needs the rain.

I need you for you can wash away my pain.

I need you more each day I need you for you are so wonderful, in every single way. I miss you more than ever now.

I miss you because I really need you somehow.

I miss you and your touch.

I miss you for to me, you mean so much. I want you to caress my lips the way you always do.

I want you to look into my eyes and see my love for you.

I want you to hold me close to your heart.

I want you to know that I love you, need you, miss you, and want you

And I have for every single moment, right from the start.

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Old memories are coming back to me

They're making me feel truly happy

Each little memory I treasure dearly

For they are about you, a person I cherish ever so deeply.

In my sleepless solitude tonight,

I can't seem to keep you off my mind

I want to hug you with all my might

Oh, what I'd give just to have you here with me through the night

If it's wrong to love you,

then I just don't want to be right.

Life is much better with you around

To my ear, your name is such a sweet sound

I was confused until you, I found

You lifted me up high from the ground.

My world was so lonely without you,

I haven't noticed the sky's shade of blue.

Everything seemed ordinary before you

But now that you're here,

I see the world in a nice different view

And now, all I want to say is

Thank You

Back for A Minute

I'm baccckk!!!! At least for a short while... I've been abit busy lately, with business and planning my finances etc. So many things happen the past few weeks and I'm abit sleepy to tell all about it.. Anyways, if anyone has done any travelling lately, do update me!!! I would be flying to amsterdam and canada again soon..

Pulling the plug... for now

You know, when too many people I know read my blog, and when some get offended, a few hold grudges, and my parents and fiance are upset with me getting over-emotional on my blog and I have a bunch of lunatics bothering me, my fiance and my family, its really time for me to pull the plug and have a little break. I need to regain my privacy and sort out my messy life, and grow up.

A few of my blogger friends have done so while I was away in Canada and I think its my turn now to take a long break of my own. My apologies to all who are offended by my previous posts.

Look Great in Half an Hour

If you have been to many gyms, slimming centres, and go through so many diets, but still never manage to lose your fats completely, liposuction is the only proven method to remove the fat cells.

A new technique, laserlipolisis was developed in Italy, approved by the FDA and proven with extremely good results. Known as Smartlipo, it is an innovative method, designed to remove unwanted lumps and bulges of fat using laser energy and through a micro-fibre optic device.

The advantages are that it does not require geral anaesthesia or blood transfusion, least invasiveness as the puncture wound is only 0.5cm, minimal side effects, reduced trauma and blood loss, reduced recovery time and less constrictive bandaging, be repeated as many times as you wish and the possibility of treating areas considered unsuitable for liposuction like the face, forearms. upper abdomen and knees.

Known as the lunch break procedure, it can take between 20minutes to one and a half hour depending on the area treated (and amount of fats).

I would recommend Dr Ungku Mohd Shahrin at The Laserlipolisis & Aesthetic Clinic. Other services includes : Botox, Mesotherapy and Vacuum Sculpt Therapy, among others.

The clinic is located ar Suite 23A-03, Level 23A, City Square Office Tower, Jln Wong Ah Fook,80000 Johor Bahru, Johor Malaysia.

For those who want voluptuous and full bust, I would recommend Slimfit, located at Berjaya Times Square, #06-27/29/31, No. 1 Jln Imbi 55100 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia or at Ngee Ann City Tower A #08-01/02/09 391A Orchard Road.

See, mine is small. I'm going for a boobie treatment soon.